Today is the last day of my 24 year old pathetic life...looking back the past one year, what have i done, what have i achieved.....life never changed throughout the whole year.....basically routine travelling and spending money....and my favorite past time complaining my life to people around me.....i always have this doubt in my life, what should i do, what should i gained in the rest of the time in this planet. Life never make sense to me until i found the right path to it.....i do not visualized the future in front of me, the bright one, or the pathetic loser, i am puzzled, and totally lost of direction what should i do...........i have been trying to make sense by doing what should be done, and supposed to be done, struggling towards the ultimate profession of human being leaving emptiness inside myself. i've got this piece of advise from people that i should go for looking a proper guidance, a guide, a man that many people out there that believed that will bring you the satisfaction in your life despite of material satisfaction but psychologically comforts......i do not always seek helps from spiritual teachings, but when things went wrong, and there were nothing you can do about it, the only that you could do is believing something that non scientific proven but self comforting, stress relieving theories in returned to give yourself a very good answer to your doubts..........Do i sound weird? haha................. i am making a point that i am not getting any progress in my life. People saying that whether you like it or not, you still have to live with it, why don't you just face it bravely with your cheeky smile on your face? yeah, i do smile, and laugh, but there are times that people feel exhausted from that smile, there is no motivation nor provocation, how the hell things going to be smooth, you can't smile all the time...there is plateau and also the lowest point, day and night, etc.when the equilibrium changed...things just went wrong, really wrong..............changes should be done in this mid twenties Asian lad......I am looking forward to my brand new 25 year old.....


It's Autumn! a song for everyone by Frank Sinatra...Autumn Leaves